Of brain crashes and meltdowns

You know how you watch medical related television series like House, Grey's Anatomy and ER, you start to wonder what are your chances of getting something so bizarre and severe. You start to wonder if you will get anything of such and how will your peers react. Panic syndrome-esque ...

My brain is crashing down, honestly. I'm getting more and more blur, emotionless and expressionless. I'm losing my senses, seriously! And because I hardly feel anything lately, I don't remember much of it. I'll wake up the next day and hardly remember what I did the night before. If that's not bad enough, my brain isn't processing as efficiently as it used to. I never really was efficient of reliable, but it's just getting worse, which is a really terribly bad thing. Reading a book takes almost forever and whenever I finish a line or two, I'll have to read back, scrutinising every single word and thinking hard what it means or I wouldn't remember a thing about the book. It's probably an attention span problem, but whatever it is, I just hope it goes away really soon. I hope it's just some sort of holiday fever thing, I hope it's not permanent. I still get the feeling that someday, I'll forget all this, everything that I've known and lived for. So, if you find me on the streets, covered in rags, with long unkempt hair and beard, looking lost and deranged, please help me ...

Don't laugh, I'm being serious. Though until then, I hope that it's fully psychological and unbecoming. Get my point? No? Good! I don't either ...

P.S. What was I blogging about again?


-hwg-